silent secrets

I'm just trying to be happy.

it's been so long since i last mentioned you. these few weeks has been normal. nothing special but i'm happy. i guess i saw you once or twice this week. i remember seeing you on monday and i was so happy. it was so random but you were suddenly just standing below me and all i could do was to smile to myslef. nothing really mattered then. even if someone were to walk past i would have not been that happy. then tues i saw you again. all the what ifs suddenly came to my mind. my friends could tell that i was about to scream not knowing what to so, but it just happened and ended as soon as it started. i realise i hardly tell anyone about you these days. unless when i see you. so i often come on my Lj to write about you. to remind myself that i still like you.
i might not be able to see you for the next three weeks. i don't know what is going to happen in the next three weeks, but i hope you and i will be happy.

now to come to think of it, i only started liking you because someone told me that you liked me. i was a fool then to like the wrong guy. i don't want to be a fool again by liking the right guy, but at the wrong time.